What am I paying for?

I missed You
I missed Nisargadatta
I missed Papaji
I missed all who could help me!
What am I paying for?
Ignorance of my ignorance?

Fools are they
who call you Ocean of Grace!
Fools are they
Who call you Mercy embodied!

Why am I made to toil?
Why am I made to suffer?
Why am I born unlucky?
Why am I impoverished of happiness?
What am I paying for?
Ignorance of my ignorance?

Fools are they
who call you Ocean of Grace!
Fools are they
Who call you Mercy embodied!

You don't extend Your hand
You don't bother about my suffering
You don't bother answering my calls
You don't care for my tears!
What am I paying for?
Ignorance of my ignorance?

Fools are they
who call you Ocean of Grace!
Fools are they
Who call you Mercy embodied!

No one have I seen selfish as You
No one have I seen mean as You are
No one have I seen sadistic as You
No one have I seen heartless as you are!
What am I paying for?
Ignorance of my ignorance?

Fools are they
who call you Ocean of Grace!
Fools are they
Who call you Mercy embodied!